"In the End... We only regret the chances we didn't take, the relationships we were afraid to have, and the decisions we waited too long to make." ~ Lewis Carroll
On Sunday August 6th I hit my 4 year anniversary mark for my job. The last 4 years have helped me grow as a person and as a professional. The last 4 years have also caused me stress and sleepless nights, tears of both Joy and Sadness. The bonds we make with people can leave an impression for a lifetime. Working with the elderly wasn't where I thought I would be if you asked me what my plans were 5 years ago. I didn't expect to be living in Santa Cruz right by the Ocean and creating all the memories that I have.... This brings me to the Fear(Less) part that I must now conquer within myself. I Love aspects of my job; the owner of the company, my office coworkers, my clients & some of my care staff. What I don't love is the stress that comes along with this position and while it has been less then before it is still there and eating away at me. While I am very thankful to my boss for taking a chance on me 4 years ago an allowing me to help build up this business, it is now time for me to look at moving on. I need a position that will truly allow me to grow within the company and offer me a bit more financial freedoms.
One of my amazing coworkers who I fondly refer to as "Mama Bear" (because she is just that), encourages me everyday in every way that I deserve the best. I also have a cousin who recently reminded me that I need to get uncomfortable and truly pursue finding a career that will make me happy and fulfilled in every way. So here is to the start of my next journey, the new chapter in my book and life.
I was listening to spotify the other day and this song Fearless came on and I just loved it. It reminded me that no matter what I cannot give up, I have the spirit of a fighter and even traveling into the unknown I want to be Fear(Less).
FEARLESS
Jasmine
I wake up I feel it
Those fears are back again
Can't shake them can't make them
Ever fade ever end
Am I good enough do I measure up
Feels like a war I can't win
But I wasn't given the spirit of fear
I was given the power of love
Everything I've been fighting against
I'm gonna lift it up
I wanna be fearless
No holding back no backing down
Fearless
Because I believe you're with me now
Bring on the unknown
Lead me and I'll go
Come set me free
God, I want to be
Fearless (I want to be)
Fearless (I want to be)
These mountains these giants
Will fall at a single word
In your name in your strength
I'm more than a conqueror
I wasn't given the spirit of fear
I was given the power of love
Everything I've been fighting against
I'm gonna lift it up
I wanna be fearless
No holding back no backing down
Fearless
Because I believe you're with me now
Bring on the unknown
Lead me and I'll go
Come set me free
God, I want to be
Fearless (I want to be)
Fearless (I want to be)
I won't be afraid
I won't be afraid
I'll call on your name
I'll walk out in faith
I won't be afraid
I won't be afraid
I'll call on your name
I'll walk out in faith
I won't be afraid
I won't be afraid
I'll call on your name
I'll walk out in faith
I wanna be fearless
No holding back no backing down
Fearless
Because I believe you're with me now
Bring on the unknown
Lead me and I'll go
You set me free
God, I want to be fearless (I want to be)
Fearless (I want to be) fearless
I wanna be fearless
~Chrissy~
