Living alone in a beautiful beach town has its perks but it also has it negatives. I have no family or friends except one who live within a reasonable traveling distance (1 hour or less). There are times that I just sit at home alone and have way to much time to dwell on the fact that I am a shy introvert who is single and feeling quite lonely. Many if not all of my friends have significant others and families of their own. I know that I am only 25 and I still have so much of my life to live but it is hard to seek the positive when the negative pulls on your heart strings. Often times tears start to well up in my eyes as I sit and think of the things I'm "missing" out on.
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When I moved to my lovely beach town I had sooooooo many of my friends who were mad and upset that I was leaving. These friends tried talking me out of it and when that failed they promised me over and over again that they would visit. I have seen the true colors of those friends because they have not once come to visit me. When I go and visit my family the expect me to make that same trip about them and because of that I feel anger towards them. They don't feel it important enough to come and see me but they expect me to drop everything for them.
They say in order to have love in your life you must first learn to love yourself. I guess there are so many things about myself that I dont love and I am more critical of myself that I need to be. Learning to let go and step outside of my normal comfort zone is something that I am learning to do. I have taken myself out to dinner and feel more comfortable grocery shopping alone as well. I write myself notes that say things like "You're Beautiful", "Smile" & "Have a Great Day". We are the deciders of our own fate and must make each day worth every second we get to live it.
~ Finding Me
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